Monday, September 26, 2005

Recognizing effects

I think that one of the hardest effects of the abuse to overcome is confidence in myself and the ability to confront. I have tried hard all my life to appease everyone. Not to make conflict. Standing up for what I know is right has always been difficult. I struggle with this still. I work on it constantly.

From an early age, I was shown not to make trouble. Never to argue. This was reinforced with violence. I watched in fear everytime my mother tried to stand up to my SF about something. He would get mad and knock her around. or destroy something. I was never allowed to get angry.

1 comment:

Ophelia said...

I wish you strength. And peace.

And less spam. :)